Blogger break ♥

I have decided to have a little bit of a break from blogging. I will be back in the Easter holidays. I need time to think and sort out life in general.
Also, me and a bunch of friends are raising money for Japan at school. We are aiming to raise £1200. I need time to sort that out too.

(big rant - you don't have to read)

My grandad died of cancer at the start of the week. 

The cancer had spread and he had previously collapsed before when he was out, but thankfully his amazing friends had phoned both us, and the ambulance. After the second time collapsing, he had to have a surgery to keep his heart steady.

Months later he got a heart attack and stroke in one. He went into a semi coma and the doctors thought he wouldn't survive it. He proved them all wrong and he made it but he had to stay in a home. I never got to visit him in a home because he passed away after being in there for a few weeks. If I am honest, I didn't cry that much when I found out because it hadn't sunk in yet. I feel horrible for that but now it has, it is more of an inside thing rather than showing my emotion - which I am very good at. The funeral is soon and I don't know if I want to see his body (I am thinking not at the moment) Because my dad is pushing me to see it and I really, really don't want to remember him that way.

I think all this sadness has also bring out one of my other hates in life - my body.

I have really bad insecurities with my body. I used to be obese (BMI of 31.7). Now I am healthy weight I hate my body even more. I hate my muscly calves, I hate my fat thighs - everything. I don't like talking about it to my friends and family because I feel like they think I make it up.

I also have no idea how to diet because I used to be on an 800kcal a day diet and that made me gain weight - wtf. Now I am eating normally but on DDR, which previously would make me lose 1kg (at least) a week, but now I am staying the same weight.

I get insomnia and I will wake up at about 3 O'clock and won't be able to get to sleep. This only happens when I am stressed.

Other personal depressants of life include friends, money, exams, relationships... just to name a few.

I promise I will be back in the Easter holidays, or if not earlier - depends when I feel better. Stick with me.

Lots of love

May Kay ♥

Giveaway soon ♥

As soon as I hit my 100 followers, I will create a giveaway :D

May Kay ♥

Deco-ed my phone and nails ♥

Left Hand (pinkie to thumb) = A pie, there was a sweet but it snapped off, chocolate colour with pink icing, cupcake, dripping chocolate

Right Hand (pinkie to thumb) = Dripping chocolate, chocolate colour with icing dots, pink and brown heart, chocolate colour with pink icing, strawberry pom pom with diamante.

Since I spilt face mask on my phone, I decided to re deco it and get rid of the coffee smell XD

By the way, my phone is LG360. Not the newest phone but I like it.

Phone charm = A bun thing, fake pink foxtail and Hello Kitty on a bow.

Front = Pink diamante, Hello Kitty from an old keyring. Also Kumikki on Popteen March wallpaper

Back = Giant Hello Kitty and pink diamantes.

May Kay ♥

GEO Sakura lens (in brown) review (MyCandyEyes) ♥

One thing, the reason why I don't wear lashes in the pictures is because I do review pictures before school because I don't like wasting makeup ^^

Not a sponsorship.

Lens-a-holic!

Usage Modality: Yearly

BC: 8.6 mm

DIA: 15 mm

Water content: 38%

Approved and Certified by: KF&D Administration

Comfort

Because these lenses are 15mm diametre, (HUGE) it means I cannot wear them for over 6 hours because of the drying effect. I had to take them out at school after about 4 hours with eyedrops D:

Enlargening effect

I see no larger than the 14.5mm one

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Design

I liked the design because of the black ring around it. Very Kumiky! The black ring makes eyes look slightly larger than the Candy Magic in the case but on the eye there is not much difference to 14.5mm.

Natural

Relitavly natural, but can be quite scary if you don't wear makeup. Like underneath ^^

Overall, I would give these lenses 6/10

May Kay ♥

Blog blog blog... (first picture of me) ♥

http://chumaykay.blogspot.com/

This will be my new blog name. I will change it on the 23rd of March so it gives my readers time to change.

I am starting the new layout now :)

Here am I (with my hair tied back) Did you expect me to look like this?

May Kay ♥

Bit of a blog change ♥

I am staying on this blog, but I will change the name and URL. I am going to make it a bit more about me and probabally will start putting pictures of myself on it too. Please don't out them on g_s XD They're so scary.

I will start the change on the 18th of this month (because then, I will have faster internet)

May Kay ♥

Ageha March 2011 scans ♥

I don't usually like Ageha, but I will upload scans especially for you ;) I do like Ageha, but the whole Agejo style doesn't really... float my boat - probably because I can't pull it off. I admire the people who can.

The little mermaid :D

May Kay ♥